Tuesday, November 10, 2009


The surgery I have found a way to avoid for almost two years is finally set for Thursday. He will be having his cleft palate repaired and ear tubes put in. I have hopes that this will lead to being able to eat by mouth and speak some words. I am cautiously optimistic. What I really want is for this to help with drainage. Whether it will do anything at all is the real question. I have heard mixed reviews from people who have had it done. The nerves and anxiety are almost too much. I just want it to be over. Abigail is staying with her grandparents so she doesn't miss more school. She is excited and I know things will go well but it is hard to leave her. Caroline is crawling now so keeping her contained will be a challenge as well. The hope is that he is only in the hospital 24 hours. I don't mind taking an extra day if that means he will feel a lot better for the 6 hour ride home. Life is definitely moving to fast. I wish we could just slow down. Chris will be having knee surgery on the 19th. Yeah I know we are crazy, but we have met all deductibles so it was important for him to have this done this year. The doctor was actually being generous getting him worked in before Thanksgiving so he can recover for a week before having to go back to work. If you are reading this and live anywhere near me HELP! I am not good at asking for help I want to believe I can do it all by myself well I am finally realizing I can't. I think the saying is it takes a village.... well the village needs to show up. I am going to need it. i promise to not say I have it covered. If you offer I will take you up on it. All that being said life around here is really good. Caroline is her own way has been the best therapy for Jackson. He is mesmerized by her. He wants to do everything she is doing. I had hoped this would happen and sure enough.. more movement, more eating, more organized playing, they are just adorable together. Abigail likes Jackson better. I say that because he is happy to hang on her every word and play along Caroline is to busy to slow down and do what her sister wants her to do. Business is great. After three years of being in the store I am finally making my goal money wise. I am waiting for that to be constant before raising my goal. Again I will say God is Good and has given us a truly blessed, and hard life. I complain at times but wouldn't trade anything for the lessons I have learned. Thanks for always being my support system I love all you guys greatly.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

My Song To Jackson

I pinch myself sometimes to make sure I'm not in a dream
That's how it seems
I close my eyes and breathe in the sweetest moments I've ever known
It feels like home
And here I am I want to be your everything
There you are
Turning winter into spring

And everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're standing ovation after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine

I fall apart
Just a word from you just somehow seems to fix
Whatever's wrong
Oh, you reach into the weakest moments
And remind me that I'm strong
You've got to know
I'd be a fool not to see you even worse
To forget that you're more than I deserve

Cause everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're standing ovation after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine

Nothing makes sense when you're not here
As if my whole world disappears
Without you what's the point of it

Cause everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're the dream that I've been chasin' after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine

Tuesday, August 11, 2009


I have been busy working on orders as well as new stuff lately. I am working hard to add things to Etsy in an attempt to sell things outside of my city. I have discovered facebook as many of you know. This has been my new form of keeping in touch. I promise not to let the blog get cobwebs and be pushed aside. Abigail will be starting Kindergarten in less than two weeks. Yikes!! Yet I may have more time to get things accomplished. We will see, there will still be two little ones at home. Caroline has figured out how to roll over. We are so proud of her. I have forgotten just how quickly they catch on. Jackson was doing some half rolling of his own but watching little sister must be inspiring because he has taken off. Literally off the bed and across the room. He is now mobile. YEAH!!! I was hopeful that Caroline would be able to teach him things but I had no idea it would start this early. Family life is great right now.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Things are looking up

Life has been a little better lately. Things are starting to fall into place. Such as Caroline has slept through the night for three nights in a row. That is huge. She may be getting herself into a routine and that makes my life have a routine which is so necessary to me. Lots of new stuff with Jackson and his services have been looking up as well. He is still on the same program but I am learning all kinds of new things that so one bothered to explain. I have been feeling alone in all of this lately. I have wonderful friends but.... at the end of the day there struggles with their kids are not the same. I found myself at the doctors office bawling and have a breakdown when he simply asked how life is going. Needless to say a prescription for happy pills was written as well as a strong suggestion to find friends with similar lives.
This is the part where God intervenes. Someone I hadn't talked to in about a year called me by accident. Seriously she was trying to call someone else named jennifer in her phone. She took care of her special needs grandson by herself until he passed away. She has been through it all. See what I mean about intervening. Wait it gets better. She left her job as a teacher after her grandson died and went back to school to pursue a masters in social work. Realizing her heart belonged to helping special needs families. She just got hired to be the case worker for the program Jackson is on. She is now in charge of helping me. Someone I know and trust is going to make sure we get everything we need.
God is Good!!!!!!

My mind is still trying to warp around this amazing new development.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


New Etsy shop up and running will be adding items like crazy the next few days. Take a look. Link on the side bar.

Love Ya!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

45 Life Lessons

Got this from another blog and thought you might enjoy it as much as I did.
Have a Blessed Day!

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we’d grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Priceless Peptalk

I Love Peyton Manning! One of my all time favorite commercials

Friday, June 12, 2009

Respect the Van!

Just bought a new black Honda Odyssey Loaded! What more is there to say. Now who's going to make the payments?

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Big Sisters are the Best

Abigail is serious about him doing his "homework" things the therapists want him to work on. Jackson is finally able to sit in the bumbo seat without falling over constantly. The first picture is to show the marker that is all over his hands. Abigail is working with him to learn to write. He is doing pretty well, and enjoys putting marks on the paper. I don't know where he would be without her. They have a truly amazing bond.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Sounds Like Hi To Me!

This is for all the grandparents who live to far away to enjoy in person! Hint Hint

You might want to pause the music at the bottom.

Friday, June 5, 2009


All of the things we were trying to get for Jackson have been approved! He will have a new bath chair, the britax special needs car seat and an amazing stroller wheelchair combo thingy called the kimba stroller. This is like Christmas. Our next big thing will be to try for the sleep safe bed. This is a twin size bed that has plexi glass railings like a crib. He really needs something since he is getting more mobile. I really think his congestion would be better if he had a bed that elevated also. So we will try.

Not much else going on school is now out so everyone is home. It will be nice to have the extra help around the house. Speaking of extra help Jackson's nursing hours have increased from 17 hours per week to 51 hours. Yeah I know quite a jump. I still haven't decided if I will use more hours or not. Mommy guilt has kicked in and I can't seem to just give in and have the nurse come more often. Post pardum is rearing it's ugly head these days. I am dealing with a lot right now. Nothing major just having a hard time with knowing this is the last baby. I realize I made this decision but that really doesn't change the emotions of it all. It's funny I can remember telling my mom that I wanted to do more with my life than just be a mom and here I am with three amazing children wanting nothing more than to just be mommy.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

I'm Obsessed

This is what I do I am an obsessive personality. I love spray painting furniture. I now look at everything and want to paint it. Only now I am running out of things in the house. Now I want to search for things to paint. But what am I supposed to do with it after I am finished? I really don't know. That's when you realize you are obsessed. I went to the habitat for humanity restore yesterday. Lots of junk but I now can see the possibilities. I am wanting to go back. See obsessed. Couldn't sleep thinking of all the things I saw and want to refinish. I have been looking for a piece of art to finish our front room. I can't find anything I like. I bought a set of swinging doors to hang on the wall. They will of course be re finished. Wish me luck.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

space for crafts

When Caroline needed a room I lost my craft room. The things we sacrifice for our children. I had attempted many spots only to end up with stuff everywhere. The kitchen table has not seen us eat there for a few weeks now. Things were getting out of hand. Then the brilliant idea came to me. Honestly I was expecting Chris to shoot it down so it was a half hearted idea. Only much to my surprise he not only like the idea he started moving things around immediately. We have a very large bedroom. So I thought what if we pull the king size bed to the middle of the room and create the wall behind the bed as a craft area. I then want to have a curtain run the 16 feet across the room to become a backdrop for the bed. Sounds great and things are completely torn apart now but how the hell are you supposed to have a 16 foot curtain run the width of your room? That part I am very open to suggestions. If this project works go us otherwise a lot of work went into a giant mess. Wish me luck and a big margarita at the end of the day.

Saturday, May 23, 2009


Just a sneak peek at all the fun projects I have been doing! Aren't I a tease He He

This bench was a nasty yellowish wood with a floral seat. I paid to much 15.00 but really thought it would look good in the entry way of the house. Love how it turned out. A black can of spray paint and a remnant of fabric.

New Pics

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Another great story

Most women became mothers by accident, some by choice, a few by social pressures and a couple by habit.

This year, nearly 100,000 women will become mothers of handicapped children. Did you ever wonder how mothers of handicapped children are chosen?

Somehow I visualize God hovering over Earth. As he observes, he instructs his angels to make notes.

"Armstrong, Beth; son; patron saint, Matthew. Forrest, Marjorie; daughter; patron saint, Cecilia. Finally he passes a name to an angel and smiles, "Give her a handicapped child."

The angel is curious. "Why this one, God? She's so happy."

"Exactly," smiles God. "Could I give a handicapped child a mother who does not know laughter?"

"But has she patience?" asks the angel.

"I don't want her to have too much patience or she will drown in a sea of self-pity and despair. Once the shock and resentment wears off, she'll handle it. I watched her today. She has that feeling of self and independence that is so rare and so necessary in a mother. You see, the child I'm going to give her has his own world. She has to make it live in her world and that's not going to be easy."

"But, Lord, I don't think she even believes in you."

God smiles, "No matter. I can fix that. This one is perfect.

She has just enough selfishness."

The angel gasps, "Selfishness?

God nods. "If she can't separate herself from the child occasionally, she'll never survive. Yes, there is a woman whom I will bless with a child less than perfect. She doesn't realize it yet, but she is to be envied. She will never take for granted a 'spoken word. She will never consider a 'step' ordinary. When her child says 'Mama' for the first time, she will be present at a miracle and know it! When she describes a tree or a sunset to her blind child, she will see it as few people ever see my creations.

I will permit her to see clearly the things I see - ignorance, cruelty, prejudice - and allow her to rise above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life."

"And what about her patron saint?" asks the angel.

God smiles. "A mirror will suffice."

Biggest Loser

This was the first year I have watched biggest loser and wow how inspiring is that show? A three hour finale was a bit much but over all I know I am now a solid fan. I wanted Mike to win and he came within four pounds of doing so. The best part is that they all feel like they got to win because they have changed their lives and have lost a ton of weight. I hope to actually stick to it and lose myself some serious weight. Something one of the players said has stuck with me. He and his son were on the show. The dad talked about how he did this to his son. He allowed his son to be almost four hundred pounds. That is so true. Our own lifestyles are a direct reflection on our kids.

First Goal: no more drive thru windows

Monday, May 11, 2009

Happy Mother's Day

This was sent to me and was so powerful I wanted to share.

Before I was a Mom
I never tripped over toys
Or forgot words to a lullaby
I didn't worry whether or not
My plants were poisonous
I never thought about immunizations

Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on
Pooped on - chewed on - or peed on
I had complete control of my mind
And my thoughts and I slept all night

Before I was a Mom...
I never held down a screaming child
So doctors could do all those tests & give a shot
I never looked into teary eyes and cried myself
I never got gloriously happy over a simple little jester
I never sat up late hours at night
Just watching my little baby sleep

Before I was a Mom...
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put them down
I never felt my heart break a million times as they grew
When I couldn't stop the hurt - I prayed
I never knew that something so small
Could affect my life so much
I never knew that I could love someone so much
I never knew I would love being a Mom

Before I was a Mom...
I didn't know the feeling of unconditional love
Having my heart outside my body
I didn't know how special it could feel
To feed a hungry baby with our bodies
I didn't know that bond existed
And between a mother and her child - there is no stronger bond
I never knew I was important and ever needed

Before I was a Mom...
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
Every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay - I have never given up
I had never known the warmth, the joy and the love
And the complete heartache and the complete wonderment
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much
Before I was a Mom - I did not exist

Sunday, April 26, 2009

The Good, The Bad and The Ugly Truth

Let me start out by saying three kids wow what a household that makes! All of my kids have a great disposition and are great sleepers but they all need something somehow at the same time. I am trying not to make Abigail the "Can you go get this" girl but it's hard not to ask her to be my extra hands. Jackson has been very vocal lately. This is a great thing except that it is this high pitched noise that is driving me crazy. I am trying to adjust to this new sound but I have to admit it is hard. Caroline is precious. She is still in that sleep poop sleep some more stage. She is doing well at night, I just don't like getting up. I got spoiled with Jackson having a feeding pump. If only something could feed Caroline through the night. Ha Ha. For fear of jinxing myself I don't really mean that comment. So on to the ugly truth. My child is severely disabled. Not that this is new news it's just that at times you can forget and get into a normal routine then bam! something happens. Jackson needs new things. He still isn't sitting independently. He has outgrown the infant carrier plus someone else needs it. He had outgrown the infant bath and needs something else for the regular bath. As I was shopping in a special needs catalog for these items the physical therapist told me not to buy these items because medicaid will pay for them. I was very excited. He has now been fitted for a britax carseat, a bath seat and an unexpected thing called a kimba stroller. This stroller is amazing and the chair part comes out and attaches to a base like thing for your house. I am excited about these things yet having a hard time knowing they are necessary. A bed will be our next thing to try for. I think he needs something that elevates at the head to help with his congestion. We will see. Jackson is now 18 lbs 6oz. That is great news but now he's getting heavy or at least next to holding little peanut he seems heavy. He looks great and even has rolls to spare. That formula really was the trick. We just keep trucking along as life is ever changing.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

She's Here!

7lbs. 3oz.
19 3/4 inches

Caroline was born Wednesday morning at 8:16. Things went very smoothly. No problems no panic attacks just easy. Well easy really isn't the right word but compared to what I was preparing for easy. We came home Friday around noon. We both were doing that great. I felt well and really over did it. Saturday was a bear. I didn't sleep much and I was really sore.

Today went well and we had a great Easter here at the house. The Easter bunny made his appearance and left eggs all over the yard. Jackson has really enjoyed playing with his basket of goodies. Life is good!

Monday, April 6, 2009

The date is Set

So my wish is coming true and Caroline will be here at 7:30 in the am on Wednesday. I am now officially in oh shit mode. My cousin is going to spend the night with us on Tuesday and take Abigail to school at 9. Jackson's nurse comes from 8:30 till 2 MWF so that is already in place. The rest we will have to make up as it comes around. My mom is coming when I was really supposed to have her next week. I think it will be nice to already be home from the hospital when mom gets here. Even though things are always chaos I think that is the only way I know how to operate these days. Please say a prayer for us on Wed. I am very nervous about having another c section. It is hard to forget what it was like with Jackson.

Hectic-- A small Update

Things have been crazy around here for a while. WE can't seem to keep everyone well at one time. Jackson was hospitalized for pneumonia from Thursday to Saturday of last week. That was quite an ordeal. Chris took the day off to take Jackson to the doctor and run my errands since I was on bed rest. We thought he had another ear infection. Needless to say we were not prepared to go to the hospital. The doctor was thinking he might have a blood infection based on some other things going on with him. WE are very grateful it was only pneumonia. During that time tests were done on me thinking I had preeclampsia again. So the same day Jackson is in the hospital I am supposed to be on bed-rest. Ha Ha . The test came back normal for me thank goodness. Jackson is doing well now and continues on breathing treatments and an antibiotic. I have been going to the doctor twice a week and am done with all this. I am tired of driving over there about thirty minutes away and tired of all the poking and prodding that has gone on this pregnancy. I am grateful to such a caring and cautious doctor but am really ready to not go anymore. Abigail was sick with a stomach bug Friday but bounced back within 12 hours and had a 4 hour nap. The bug was just enough for me to get it and I spent all day yesterday in the bathroom or in my room. I guess I am lucky it happened on the weekend. I am barely hanging on this morning but another doctors appointment awaits me in about an hour. I think I will request Caroline be born this week instead of next. I don't know how that will go over but a girls got to try right.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Jackson is 2

Yesterday was Jackson's birthday. We had a nice day with the exception of all of us having head congestion. It was just the family which was nice. I really didn't feel the need to go over board this year. I hate to say the decorations and cake were more for Abigail's benefit. The balloons all about Jack though. HE loves mylar balloons. We have now survived two years which according to the research increases his mortality rate greatly. While I am thrilled at that prospect, I have to admit his birthday brings it all back. The days, weeks, months surrounding his birth and diagnosis. I want to encourage you to visit my favorite blog My New Normal it is on my sidebar. She describes in perfect detail how I have been feeling lately. How I will more than likely feel every birthday. In all that sadness one of the kids I keep track of died at the age of twenty yesterday. So while mortality rates can increase we never know how long any of us has. I try not to stay long in the sadness of it all, I don't want to miss the great moments we do have with our miracle Jack.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

The Climb Miley Cyrus

Yeah I know it's Miley cyrus but it's a good song!

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreamin
But there's a voice inside my head saying you'll never reach it.
Every step I'm taking.
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction.
My faith is shakin.
But I,I gotta keep tryin.
Gotta keep my head held high.

There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.

The struggles I'm facing.
The chances I'm taking.
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking.
I may not know it but these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah.
Just gotta keep going.
And I, I gotta be strong.
Just keep pushing on 'cause,

There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
But Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.


There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes you're gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.


Keep on moving,
Keep climbing,
Keep the faith,

It’s all about,
It’s all about the climb.
Keep your faith,
Keep your faith.

Whoa, O Whoa.

Freaking Out

Maybe I should remove the baby count down from the blog. It is starting to taunt me. Reminding me I don't have the house just the way I want it. I don't have diapers stock plied in the closet like with the other kids. 50 days that can't be right. This pregnancy has flown by. I need to just keep her inside me, I'm pretty sure that's the only way to survive having three kids. Car seat situation still not figured out. Double stroller still not decided on or wanting to spend the money. (please insert a panicked voice along with blog post it's much more dramatic that way)

Oh My Gosh I'm having another baby!

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Decorating Madness!

I have been in a decorating kind of mood lately. I want everything in the house to look different. I have a long short dresser in my hallway. It is the heavy dark wood style with gold door knocker type handles. You know your parents furniture. Well I wish I had taken a before picture It has now been sanded and spray painted black. It will then be lightly sanded to give it the rustic look that is oh so popular. This thing is gorgeous! i already have a plan for the wall space above said dresser.

On the right is a button for a new blog I found that is dedicated to decorating. I am crazy in love with it. Pictures coming soon.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009


It has come to my attention that I have been slacking on posting. I sincerely apologize. Things are great around here. Jackson has gained two pounds since Christmas, which makes the total three pounds since starting this new formula. He now weighs 16 pounds 9 ounces. That is the most he has ever weighed. Weight gain was our main goal, but we weren't prepared for all the wonderful things that were in store. Jackson has come alive in the last month. He smiles and laughs and has so much more strength. He truly seems like a different child. Small miracles but miracles none the less. Abigail continues to dazzles us with her wit and intelligence. The picture of her above is of a puzzle she has completed. She is really into puzzles and is now doing 63 piece puzzles. She got a mid year report from school that would make any parent gush with pride. She is an amazing kid. She continues to take dance twice a week and loves it. The theme of their recital this year is the circus. I got to preview the costumes they are adorable. I'm not sure how I will go to the recital since it is the week I am due, but we will see. Pregnancy continues to go well and I am getting rather large. I am now on iron pills since my iron was low at the last test. They are big pills and I really don't like pills but it's just another thing to go through. Caroline is quite the mover and can't wait to see how her personality stacks up to my other two. The store is going through some changes. We are no longer going to carry consignment clothes. The laws are changing and concerns over lead in clothing has made it not worth trying to keep the clothes. We are in the process of making booths and renting them out to crafters. This is the direction I always wanted for the store so, hopefully it will take off. I have bee busy trying to make stuff to fill my booth. I didn't realize just how low I let my inventory get.

I used to laugh at my mother when she talked about how fast time was passing. I am so sorry mom. I get it now.

Friday, January 16, 2009

One Day You Will Lady Antebellum

You feel like you’re falling backwards
Like you’re slippin’ through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can’t see it now

But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there’s a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won’t be much longer
You’ll find love, you’ll find peace
And the you you’re meant to be
I know right now that’s not the way you feel
But one day you will

You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You’re just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you’re down to your last breath
And you don’t know it yet

Repeat Chorus

Find the strength to rise above
You will
Find just what you’re made of, you’re made of

Repeat Chorus

One day you will
Oh one day you will

To A Friend I Have Never Met

My dearest friend Trish shares the same sad story of Emanuel's Syndrome. I have spoken often of her and look up to her. I would have never survived this diagnosis without her. I have never met her. We can spend hours on the phone as if we are sisters and keep in touch through blogs. When I heard this song I thought of her. She is struggling right now with a delicate situation of trying to adopt her foster son. We share so many traits and immediately feel the same things. I know how I would feel in her shoes and can easily imagine the agony she is in now. All I can say is the harder the road the sweeter the victory. I love you dearly and think of you all the time.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Nothing Without You Bebo Norman

Take these hands and lift them up
For I have not the strength to praise You near enough
For I have nothing, I have nothing without You

Take my voice and pour it out
Let it sing the songs of mercy I have found
For I have nothing, I have nothing without You

All my soul needs
Is all Your love to cover me
So all the world will see
That I have nothing without You

Take my body and build it up
May it be broken as an offering of love
For I have nothing, I have nothing without You

All my soul needs
Is all Your love to cover me
So all the world will see
That I have nothing
But I love You

With all my heart
With all my soul
With all my mind
With all the strength that I can find

Take my time here on this earth
And let it glorify all that You are worth
For I am nothing,
I am nothing without You