Friday, May 30, 2008
Thursday, May 29, 2008
I am a mess today. I started bawling in front of the new physical therapist. I hate for other people to see me cry. I felt so pathetic. She started asking me if I had a support group or a counselor I really don't want to admit I might need that. I thought I didn't want to say anything to Abigail about Jackson's condition unless she asked. Well she is asking and having a hard time with therapists coming to work with him. I think it is that she isn't getting attention. I told her he needs extra help learning things. I don't know what else to say. I don't want it to be real. Saying it out loud saying it to her makes it real. I want to pretend everything's fine. I want to pretend it's normal that my 14 month old baby can't sit up.
Monday, May 26, 2008
So we drove two hours on Friday after Chris got home from school so that Chris and Jackson could have a short stay in a new "hotel". They only had to stay from 7:30pm to 12:00am. Abigail and I did some shopping while we waited for them to complete their stay and then got a hotel room of our own. The nurses packed in to see a baby. Apparently Jackson hammed it up for them and was very intrigued with them. I guess if you are used to seeing elderly people this was a great change. After picking them up at midnight we were all exhausted. We spent Saturday driving around our old stomping ground. I am always surprised at how much I miss Lubbock. Then again those were the good days of going to class and having no job, no kids and nothing to worry about. The town has grown so much! We drove past our old town house it brought back a flood of memories. We are truly blessed to have had such a good time early on in the relationship. Thirty days from now Jackson will be on medicaid!!!!!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Monday, May 12, 2008
As I sit down with my calendar I realize this week is just too much. I cancelled on tonight's bunko to finish orders due tom. Then get a call from the in laws saying we are having dinner with family that came into town. I adore Chris' aunt and haven't seen her in many months, but yikes what a time crunch. Also in that is Abigail's last two rehearsals before the recital at 4:00 on Sat which we will promptly leave so she can go to a wedding rehearsal to be a flower girl. This wedding includes family that will be staying with us so that means a mad dash to clean the guest room/craft room. Chris has an awards banquet on Tuesday night. Throw in all therapies for Jack the last special days at school for Abigail meaning shopping for a bathing suit for splash day etc etc. I am a little overwhelmed this manic monday. There's to hoping it all gets done or that I realize life will go on even if it doesn't get done. Listening to the song makes me realize all these things require me to figure out what I'm going to wear. Do I even have that many dresses? UUUUGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Monday, May 5, 2008
Yeah! Prayers answered! Thank you for all your support. I had a meeting this morning and we are moving forward with the Medically Dependent Child Program. This will gives us Medicaid and nursing hours to use when we need. There are also budgets for things if we need to make modifications to our home to best suit Jackson. I am on cloud nine right now. I can't explain the burden lifted from my shoulders. Yeah!
Friday, May 2, 2008
Thank you God for making me who I am