Wednesday, August 27, 2008

The Story

Brandi Carlile

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true... I was made for you

I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Oh because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do and I was made for you

You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through like you do
And I was made for you.

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you

Ohh yea it's true... that I was made for you

Ohh yea it's true..... that I was made to be your friend, your daughter, your wife, and your mother
Thanks for sharing the journey with me without you I would not be me

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

These Things Will Change!

Doctors and websites all said my baby wouldn't walk, talk, or do much of anything. That is a tough reality to hear. It is a parents worst case scenario. We have watched our baby who had a 2% chance of being born alive fight. He has fought and conquered more in 16 months than we thought he would in his whole life. We are really struggling with how hypotonic he is. He is like a rag doll on a good day. Physical therapy is much more exhausting for me than him, but what we are lacking for progress in physical strength we are making leaps and bounds mentally. We now have about 12 pictures of things that are important to him like toys and family. He can look at a series of pictures and pick out the correct one we are asking for. He is also made the connection between the picture and the object. His communication skills are excellent. He is trying to say the words with the pictures. It often comes out as the first letter sound of the word but very impressive. We are on such a high from the things he has been doing lately. These things so many people said he wouldn't do. There are so few people chosen to have a miracle in there lives. I know better than to think I will wake up and all the obstacles in his life will vanish but .......... I love a good unexplained miracle! Here's to Jackson and all the things that are subject to change!

Sunday, August 17, 2008


Pause music at the bottom of the blog to listen to you tube video. I have never watched swimming, yet I didn't miss a race Michael Phelps was in. He is amazing and a true inspiration. He says nothing motivates him more than when somesone says it can't be done. We need more role models like him!!!!!

8 Gold Medals Michael Phelps Won More Olympic Gold Medals Than Anybody Ever Narrated by Morgan Freeman Bejing Olympics 2008 VI

Thursday, August 14, 2008

I feel like Eva Gabor

I spent three and a half hours being pampered yesterday. Chris got me a spa package for my birthday in December and I just used it. This is the life. I feel so relaxed and like a Queen. I don't know why but when thinking what song could I put to a spa entry Green Acres came to mind. I can't explain, other than I live in West Texas and I felt fancy today. I think I was supposed to be born somewhere like New York with great shopping and fancy living. If anyone ever asks you what you want for your birthday always say a spa package. THIS IS THE LIFE!!!!!!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Viva Las Vegas!

I have been meaning to post about our family trip to Las Vegas and out of laziness am just now uploading the pictures.  We spent two weeks with my mom and her husband.  We did all the average touristy things like the strip and lots and lots of shopping.  In fact Chris and I both had to send boxes home which was cheaper than pay for another bag on the plane.  We took a direct flight 2 hours and 10 minutes (the kids were perfect both ways) you wouldn't have even known we had kids with us.  Thank God for small things.  Chris spend the first week attending a government conference which according to him was excellent.  The excellent part for me was getting to spend the week days with my mom away from husbands!  Jackson is usually a momma's boy but with Grandma around I was nothing.  They got a chance to really bond for that I am very grateful.  If you ask Abigail about Las Vegas she immediately tells you Grandma has an alarm on her house.  This was traumatic for her because she made it go off and she is skittish with loud noises. She will also tell you we ate corn dogs in Las Vegas.  Her favorite food is corn dogs so this was a highlight.  After those two things she will eventually tell you she got a build-a-bear.   I spent 80 dollars on this bear with many outfits and it rates behind a stinking corn dog but that's a 4 year old.  

Tuesday, August 5, 2008


I got a call today from the medically dependent child program the one Jackson is currently on.  She was asking if I had set up nursing hours for Jackson.  I have not.  I was on the fence about having someone take care of my child regardless of the fact they were going to pay for someone to come in 49 hours a week.  Yes I typed that right what would anyone do for 49 hours away from their child?  I am a stay at home mom so am I supposed to be home and have someone take care of him?  All of these are questions I hadn't decided on the answer to.  So back to the phone call-- this lady starts saying your going to lose medicaid if you don't get this set up and is acting like I already know this information. I hate not knowing everything I need too, then being treated like I am stupid for not knowing. I guess I will be calling tomorrow to get nursing hours set up. I only have to use it once a month to keep medicaid so.....  What the hell am I supposed to do?  I have no clue!  I realize this is a petty thing to be frustrated by and I should be grateful such a program exists and I am I just have a lot of emotions about leaving Jackson with anyone.  I think I would feel guilty.  If only I could get a housekeeper instead. HA HA HA!