Tuesday, October 21, 2008

weight loss

I am frustrated. Jackson has been steadily losing weight for a while. He is eighteen months old and only 13 lbs and 14 oz. About six months ago he was 16 lbs. The next time we checked he was 14 lbs. 6 oz. then todays weigh in was the 13 lbs and 14 oz. I have been trying to get a nutritionist to see him. Apparently that takes an act of congress. His pediatrician who I thought I loved in starting to frustrate me too. he said that Jackson could move to a new formula called next steps because he is older. I looked at the ingredients and they are the same as what he gets now. I'm not sure how that is supposed to help. Those of you who have tube fed babies please direct me. What type of feeding schedule do you have. I think I am starving him but how am I supposed to know.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Big News!

I am so sorry for the month long hiatus. In my defense things around here are big time changing. I found myself unexpectedly pregnant. Yes I know you just had to reread that word. We have been pretty tight lipped about it for the obvious reason of genetics. We had saddled the fence on whether to have another baby for a while. Should we take the chance and how would we survive having to hear another baby was going to have problems. We had made some hard decisions concerning the pregnancy and were trying to move forward with whatever would happen next. Everyday I found myself thinking I didn't have a miscarriage today, but there's always tomorrow. We then made the decision to fly to Dallas and have a test called a CVS. That tests the placenta and does a DNA test. I had the test done on October 1st. The real waiting began. I jumped when the phone rang and spent hours imagining what the phone call would sound like. Chris who is always the champion in these situations had the best of hopes, while I wouldn't allow myself to be happy. All that being said I still played around with names looked at nursery bedding and made so many plans. I guess you can't stop yourself. The phone rang at 8:15 in the morning as I was trying to get Abigail ready for school. The ID said out of area so I almost didn't answer it. The women said This is vicki from Dr. Weiss' office and thank goodness I was in the kitchen near a chair. My hand was shaking and I'm pretty sure I stopped breathing. She continued to say everything came back 100% normal, would you like to know the gender? I started bawling and shaking harder.


I for some reason still have trouble believing it. I can't seem to relax even after being told things will be fine. I know too much now I have seen too much. I was severely pre-eclampsic with Jackson and that is why he was two months early. I am trying to stay positive. Things will be changing big time around here. The baby is due April 23rd. Please pray that everything goes smoothly with this pregnancy.