A New Perspective

I have been doing some soul searching these past few days.  I want to find  peace in my decisions and contentment in my situation.  I want to come to a new understanding that my life is blessed and not the mess I sometimes make it out to be.  It is so easy to reflect on how you want to live and so hard to actually live that way.  I am asking God to show me a new perspective.  Help me to see the amazing things I am meant for.  I am trying to listen more to the inner workings of what God truly wants for me.  This is not easy for someone who is a control freak.  I am trying to surrender my control and find peace in others wisdom.  Basically I am trying to be happy with what I have and not always want more.  I lead a blessed and very spoiled life yet crave so many things that I'm sure are not going to bring me any more happiness than I already have.  

If only we all could see things through God's eyes for even one moment. 

If only we could see how the pieces of our lives fit together so we could understand the "whole" picture

I am finding myself not sleeping again.  Please pray for me to find the peace necessary to allow me to recharge my batteries.  I am a constant thought full of worry and ideas.  I can't seem to turn off.  I am quietly going crazy inside my own mind.