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A New Perspective

I have been doing some soul searching these past few days.  I want to find  peace in my decisions and contentment in my situation.  I want to come to a new understanding that my life is blessed and not the mess I sometimes make it out to be.  It is so easy to reflect on how you want to live and so hard to actually live that way.  I am asking God to show me a new perspective.  Help me to see the amazing things I am meant for.  I am trying to listen more to the inner workings of what God truly wants for me.  This is not easy for someone who is a control freak.  I am trying to surrender my control and find peace in others wisdom.  Basically I am trying to be happy with what I have and not always want more.  I lead a blessed and very spoiled life yet crave so many things that I'm sure are not going to bring me any more happiness than I already have.  

If only we all could see things through God's eyes for even one moment. 

If only we could see how the pieces of our lives fit together so we could understand the "whole" picture

I am finding myself not sleeping again.  Please pray for me to find the peace necessary to allow me to recharge my batteries.  I am a constant thought full of worry and ideas.  I can't seem to turn off.  I am quietly going crazy inside my own mind. 

Home for One year Today!

I ran across these photos today.  As you can imagine they hit me hard.  I try not to think of those months when things were so devastating.  Seeing the photos again today made me proud of just how far our family has come in a year.  He continues to amaze me.  In a year's time I have gone from not wanting a sick baby to wondering if I could possibly live without him.  I share these photos today only to show just how far he has come.  I haven't let others look at them until now.  Here's to you my beautiful handsome son!  According to I Tunes I listened to this song 76 times in the month after his birth, and who knows how many boxes of Kleenex.  

Dearest Jackson,

You are and will always be the most amazing person in my life.  You inspire me to keep going and never give up!  Keep up the good work.  I love you Bud!

Back to Reality

I am home after two weeks of having my mother cook, clean, drive, get up with abigail at 7:00a.m, change dirty diapers,  and play with my children.  I didn't want to come home.  Chris left this morning for Washington D.C.  I am not only home but am alone.  I didn't want to come home.  Did I mention that?  There is nothing like having your mom take care of you.  Vegas has an abundance of shopping and I think I went to it all!!!!!!!  I love to shop.  I gambled but broke even.  I really wanted to win enough for a Coach purse but no such luck.  I don't know if I could spend that much anyway.  I have been greeted with not being able to find things because of piles of junk, and a list of orders kindly waiting upon my return. I have a full week of catching up on all therapies for Jackson and about 100 phone calls to tie up loose ends.  WAH!   Life is Wonderful!   

Life is Wonderful

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is so full of
Ah la la la la la la life is so rough
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is our love
Ah la la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life is meaningful
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life it is...so... wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full circle
Wonderful

Jason Mraz