Mean Girls

At a very young age Abigail has already had to learn about how mean girls can be to each other. Last year there was a girl who made her cry nearly daily. She would say things like "your dolls name is stupid" "if you really want to be my friend you will...." It was constant. So at the ripe old age of five she learned to deal with the fact that words can hurt and people who say mean words to you are not really your friend. I gave you that story only to tell you another. Our neighborhood is filled with kids. That is both good and bad. Her very best friend lives across the street and we love the family; that is the good. There is another girl a few houses down that is not so nice. I haven't witnessed her do anything that bad she just isn't that nice. She knocked on the door a few minutes ago and Abigail asked me to tell her that she couldn't play. I am thrilled because I don't like the girl that much but I think just maybe a valuable lesson has been learned. Only surround yourself with people who are nice to you because life is just to short to be treated like CRAP!!!!

I have been inspired to come back!

More on that later! Ha Ha See I haven't lost my wit. Which might or might not be why you read this. Serious update coming later today.

Surgery

The surgery I have found a way to avoid for almost two years is finally set for Thursday. He will be having his cleft palate repaired and ear tubes put in. I have hopes that this will lead to being able to eat by mouth and speak some words. I am cautiously optimistic. What I really want is for this to help with drainage. Whether it will do anything at all is the real question. I have heard mixed reviews from people who have had it done. The nerves and anxiety are almost too much. I just want it to be over. Abigail is staying with her grandparents so she doesn't miss more school. She is excited and I know things will go well but it is hard to leave her. Caroline is crawling now so keeping her contained will be a challenge as well. The hope is that he is only in the hospital 24 hours. I don't mind taking an extra day if that means he will feel a lot better for the 6 hour ride home. Life is definitely moving to fast. I wish we could just slow down. Chris will be having knee surgery on the 19th. Yeah I know we are crazy, but we have met all deductibles so it was important for him to have this done this year. The doctor was actually being generous getting him worked in before Thanksgiving so he can recover for a week before having to go back to work. If you are reading this and live anywhere near me HELP! I am not good at asking for help I want to believe I can do it all by myself well I am finally realizing I can't. I think the saying is it takes a village.... well the village needs to show up. I am going to need it. i promise to not say I have it covered. If you offer I will take you up on it. All that being said life around here is really good. Caroline is her own way has been the best therapy for Jackson. He is mesmerized by her. He wants to do everything she is doing. I had hoped this would happen and sure enough.. more movement, more eating, more organized playing, they are just adorable together. Abigail likes Jackson better. I say that because he is happy to hang on her every word and play along Caroline is to busy to slow down and do what her sister wants her to do. Business is great. After three years of being in the store I am finally making my goal money wise. I am waiting for that to be constant before raising my goal. Again I will say God is Good and has given us a truly blessed, and hard life. I complain at times but wouldn't trade anything for the lessons I have learned. Thanks for always being my support system I love all you guys greatly.

My Song To Jackson

I pinch myself sometimes to make sure I'm not in a dream
That's how it seems
I close my eyes and breathe in the sweetest moments I've ever known
It feels like home
And here I am I want to be your everything
There you are
Turning winter into spring

And everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're standing ovation after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
Yeah
I just call you mine

I fall apart
Just a word from you just somehow seems to fix
Whatever's wrong
Oh, you reach into the weakest moments
And remind me that I'm strong
You've got to know
I'd be a fool not to see you even worse
To forget that you're more than I deserve

Cause everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're standing ovation after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine

Nothing makes sense when you're not here
As if my whole world disappears
Without you what's the point of it

Cause everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're the dream that I've been chasin' after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine

Busy!!!!!

I have been busy working on orders as well as new stuff lately. I am working hard to add things to Etsy in an attempt to sell things outside of my city. I have discovered facebook as many of you know. This has been my new form of keeping in touch. I promise not to let the blog get cobwebs and be pushed aside. Abigail will be starting Kindergarten in less than two weeks. Yikes!! Yet I may have more time to get things accomplished. We will see, there will still be two little ones at home. Caroline has figured out how to roll over. We are so proud of her. I have forgotten just how quickly they catch on. Jackson was doing some half rolling of his own but watching little sister must be inspiring because he has taken off. Literally off the bed and across the room. He is now mobile. YEAH!!! I was hopeful that Caroline would be able to teach him things but I had no idea it would start this early. Family life is great right now.

Things are looking up

Life has been a little better lately. Things are starting to fall into place. Such as Caroline has slept through the night for three nights in a row. That is huge. She may be getting herself into a routine and that makes my life have a routine which is so necessary to me. Lots of new stuff with Jackson and his services have been looking up as well. He is still on the same program but I am learning all kinds of new things that so one bothered to explain. I have been feeling alone in all of this lately. I have wonderful friends but.... at the end of the day there struggles with their kids are not the same. I found myself at the doctors office bawling and have a breakdown when he simply asked how life is going. Needless to say a prescription for happy pills was written as well as a strong suggestion to find friends with similar lives.
This is the part where God intervenes. Someone I hadn't talked to in about a year called me by accident. Seriously she was trying to call someone else named jennifer in her phone. She took care of her special needs grandson by herself until he passed away. She has been through it all. See what I mean about intervening. Wait it gets better. She left her job as a teacher after her grandson died and went back to school to pursue a masters in social work. Realizing her heart belonged to helping special needs families. She just got hired to be the case worker for the program Jackson is on. She is now in charge of helping me. Someone I know and trust is going to make sure we get everything we need.
God is Good!!!!!!


My mind is still trying to warp around this amazing new development.

Etsy!

New Etsy shop up and running will be adding items like crazy the next few days. Take a look. Link on the side bar.


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