She's Here!

CAROLINE ROSE
7lbs. 3oz.
19 3/4 inches



Caroline was born Wednesday morning at 8:16. Things went very smoothly. No problems no panic attacks just easy. Well easy really isn't the right word but compared to what I was preparing for easy. We came home Friday around noon. We both were doing that great. I felt well and really over did it. Saturday was a bear. I didn't sleep much and I was really sore.



Today went well and we had a great Easter here at the house. The Easter bunny made his appearance and left eggs all over the yard. Jackson has really enjoyed playing with his basket of goodies. Life is good!

The date is Set

So my wish is coming true and Caroline will be here at 7:30 in the am on Wednesday. I am now officially in oh shit mode. My cousin is going to spend the night with us on Tuesday and take Abigail to school at 9. Jackson's nurse comes from 8:30 till 2 MWF so that is already in place. The rest we will have to make up as it comes around. My mom is coming when I was really supposed to have her next week. I think it will be nice to already be home from the hospital when mom gets here. Even though things are always chaos I think that is the only way I know how to operate these days. Please say a prayer for us on Wed. I am very nervous about having another c section. It is hard to forget what it was like with Jackson.

Hectic-- A small Update

Things have been crazy around here for a while. WE can't seem to keep everyone well at one time. Jackson was hospitalized for pneumonia from Thursday to Saturday of last week. That was quite an ordeal. Chris took the day off to take Jackson to the doctor and run my errands since I was on bed rest. We thought he had another ear infection. Needless to say we were not prepared to go to the hospital. The doctor was thinking he might have a blood infection based on some other things going on with him. WE are very grateful it was only pneumonia. During that time tests were done on me thinking I had preeclampsia again. So the same day Jackson is in the hospital I am supposed to be on bed-rest. Ha Ha . The test came back normal for me thank goodness. Jackson is doing well now and continues on breathing treatments and an antibiotic. I have been going to the doctor twice a week and am done with all this. I am tired of driving over there about thirty minutes away and tired of all the poking and prodding that has gone on this pregnancy. I am grateful to such a caring and cautious doctor but am really ready to not go anymore. Abigail was sick with a stomach bug Friday but bounced back within 12 hours and had a 4 hour nap. The bug was just enough for me to get it and I spent all day yesterday in the bathroom or in my room. I guess I am lucky it happened on the weekend. I am barely hanging on this morning but another doctors appointment awaits me in about an hour. I think I will request Caroline be born this week instead of next. I don't know how that will go over but a girls got to try right.

Jackson is 2

Yesterday was Jackson's birthday. We had a nice day with the exception of all of us having head congestion. It was just the family which was nice. I really didn't feel the need to go over board this year. I hate to say the decorations and cake were more for Abigail's benefit. The balloons all about Jack though. HE loves mylar balloons. We have now survived two years which according to the research increases his mortality rate greatly. While I am thrilled at that prospect, I have to admit his birthday brings it all back. The days, weeks, months surrounding his birth and diagnosis. I want to encourage you to visit my favorite blog My New Normal it is on my sidebar. She describes in perfect detail how I have been feeling lately. How I will more than likely feel every birthday. In all that sadness one of the kids I keep track of died at the age of twenty yesterday. So while mortality rates can increase we never know how long any of us has. I try not to stay long in the sadness of it all, I don't want to miss the great moments we do have with our miracle Jack.

The Climb Miley Cyrus

Yeah I know it's Miley cyrus but it's a good song!

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreamin
But there's a voice inside my head saying you'll never reach it.
Every step I'm taking.
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction.
My faith is shakin.
But I,I gotta keep tryin.
Gotta keep my head held high.

There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.

The struggles I'm facing.
The chances I'm taking.
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking.
I may not know it but these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah.
Just gotta keep going.
And I, I gotta be strong.
Just keep pushing on 'cause,


There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
But Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.

Yeah-yeah

There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle




Sometimes you're gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.

Yeah-yeah-yea

Keep on moving,
Keep climbing,
Keep the faith,
Baby.

It’s all about,
It’s all about the climb.
Keep your faith,
Keep your faith.

Whoa, O Whoa.

Freaking Out

Maybe I should remove the baby count down from the blog. It is starting to taunt me. Reminding me I don't have the house just the way I want it. I don't have diapers stock plied in the closet like with the other kids. 50 days that can't be right. This pregnancy has flown by. I need to just keep her inside me, I'm pretty sure that's the only way to survive having three kids. Car seat situation still not figured out. Double stroller still not decided on or wanting to spend the money. (please insert a panicked voice along with blog post it's much more dramatic that way)

Oh My Gosh I'm having another baby!

Decorating Madness!

I have been in a decorating kind of mood lately. I want everything in the house to look different. I have a long short dresser in my hallway. It is the heavy dark wood style with gold door knocker type handles. You know your parents furniture. Well I wish I had taken a before picture It has now been sanded and spray painted black. It will then be lightly sanded to give it the rustic look that is oh so popular. This thing is gorgeous! i already have a plan for the wall space above said dresser.

On the right is a button for a new blog I found that is dedicated to decorating. I am crazy in love with it. Pictures coming soon.